I think i have just dethroned mr yang as the king of pangseh. i think i hold a record this week for pangsehing people. at one point of time, i was still feeling bad about pangsehing people and keeping track, then it stopped totally, the number is increasing quite fast. it was at least once a day. eg... not jioing for colleagues for lunch, or disappearing 10 minutes before an outing, and not turning up for friend's bdae (reason being... lazy) and not turning up for class gathering. (i remember some of my friends were keeping track of the exact numbers... which i totally lost count). but having said that, i found pangseh addictive. sia lah, in the past, i always do things which i didn't want to, for the sake of others. now when i am in control, i actually feel so much better and happier, though yah lah... i pangseh people, but all in all i felt the time were actually BETTER spent bcos i pangseh. being in control of your own time and prioritising who u want to spent time with really beats the hell out of prioritising who u should spend time with. and i think its a small step forward. on the other hand, things have become clearer to me. i realise i have procrastinating cos i do not know what i want. kinda ironic. yes and i didn't like the feeling and i have been dragging cos i didn't wanna hurt anyone feeling. i guess it was selfish on my part. but after talking to some people, i begin to realise what i value more. and what i really can do without. no one is a perfect fit, but what i can do is to find the "most" perfect one. and more or less. i think i have decided. at the end of the day, i choose to be rational but i won't recommend this to all my peers.
posted @ 10:15 PM ||
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name: Tianyu
Passion: Maths, Music, Table Tennis
sex: M
philosophy: many people knows different part of me, but one thing in common is i will not
allow myself to fall *Elandriel*
