Saturday, October 14, 2006
Nostalgic
I pass by a tuition centre whilst i was on my way home. Wad a crowd. I never understand the need for tuition, always believed in flair. but i guess many people live their lives without realising their talents and potential. i was fortunate, but not many are as fortunate as me.
i remember there was a time in primary school where my cliques are a bunch of misfits, academically they are not well off. spent a large deal of time with them at the basketball court at my void deck playing and idling time away. primary 4 streaming, with some stroke of luck, i got into em1 and that differentiates us. in my cca (table tennis), no one cares about studies, these are my second core group of friend. once again, i was quite close with them. got into fights and stuff over really trivial issues with people from other cca. despite being a prefect, i do not care about rules. had my own "clan" and i exempt everyone under me from school rules. hahaha, born rebel. primary 5 was a turning point in my life. tagged with my sis to the Maths and Science CCA, spend the whole session solving challenging maths, but however, the teacher soon realise the speed at which i can solve problem is way faster than she could do it, i was given the opportunity to compete at some competition, beginning with Australia Maths Competition. Aced that, next school level competition and some individual, didn't top but got my school ono the list of top 10. in another competition, i was ranked top 2o individually. (many years down the line, the school i was became a centre of maths program, each time i return to have a look at the trophy rack of the school, i am still proud to look at the collection, i won't almost everything the school ever had). it was my ability to perform in maths that slowly separate me from my peers. but innately, i still have their blood flowing in me, my behaviour. Each time i look at kids from tuition centre, i can't help but wonder how i would be like if i hadn't got my lucky break. would i be like those people from my primary school, poly grad at best, and some, even become parents at 22. of course, on the other hand, i wonder if i had the luxury to go through tuition, i could have gone much further. i do feel i am peaking, there is very little left in me. but could that be attributed to a lack of proper education?
on the other hand, human are all nothing but a joke. when it comes to giving advice, we are just so good at giving commonsensical advice that most of us, in the spurt of emotion don't remember. how many times have you hear "face up to reality!" but when it is your turn to have a problem, you hide? i think i am awfully guilty of that. hahaha. each time i tell a friend to face up to reality, i am reminded of a fact of a part of my memory which i had shut out. too painful too even think about. there was a time where i was really lying on bed trying to gets it out, and it wasn't easy, and the best way was really to just lock it out.
hmm... some food for thought:
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